Today is my birthday, and for the first time I can remember, the festivities aren't all wrapped up in food. It's a strange feeling, almost annoying.
In birthdays past, I would have used the entire day as a giant excuse to gorge myself. I have had a long-standing tradition of eating Long John Silvers for lunch on my birthday. It was reminiscent of childhood memories of driving to Grandma's house in Virginia and stopping at LJS as a special treat. I always ordered the two-piece fish and chips with a double order of hush puppies and drenched the whole thing in ketchup. Then, of course, Ken would get me some cupcakes from Cupcake Collection to munch on for a couple of days, and we would go out for a fancy dinner with wine and some kind of decadent, molten chocolate dessert. I could easily have eaten 6000 calories in one day, all in the name of "celebration".
I've been off of wheat now for ten months, and the few times I have indulged have led to nausea, bloating, and mild depression. Of course, not eating wheat rules out fried fish, hushpuppies,
and cupcakes, but the strange thing is that I woke up this morning and didn't want any of those things. It kind of pissed me off because I would have happily broken my own rule for my birthday. But I want to feel good today. I don't want to feel sick and bloated. It's a shift, and I'm not sure what to make of it.
I guess I'll just spend the day celebrating the 36 years I've been on the planet, the friends and family who make life entertaining and worth while, my amazing husband and baby boy, and the mini pit bull who likes to sleep on my feet.
I'd rather feel good than eat cupcakes, and that's some kind of sick, twisted logic. I'll let you know when the aliens return me to my right mind.